I'm finding it harder to hide my bump at work. I don't care when I'm out and about. I actually would prefer to be bigger out in public so that its easy for strangers to tell I'm pregnant. 

However, at work I would prefer to be a bit smaller until I reveal the news! So for now I've been wearing clothes I always do but with something looser covering it. When I walked to and from my desk I put my hands in front of my stomach and hold it in slightly, trying my best not to suck in! Back at my desk, I could let it all hang because my coworker that sits across from me was told very early on.

I have been noticing some hip pain when i wake up in the morning. I pillow in between my legs has improved that drastically. That means my hips are starting to move outward a little. I'm sure that will continue. Baby Lime must need a little more room. I'm still feeling a little sick, but mostly at night. I was hoping that would be a good thing, that I could simply sleep through it, but that isn't always the case. Sometimes I'll lay in bed for hours and then get up to eat when i realize my stomach is completely empty. I've been taking prenatal vitamins in the morning to help balance out the sickness in case the pills are contributing.

No dreams yet! I'm surprised!! Maybe I'm just too tired. I'm sure I'm having them here and there, just not able to remember anything. I wish I could! Two reasons. One, obviously i want to be able to write them down and look back on them. Two, the ability to remember them might indicate I'm getting enough sleep!

So Thanksgiving was last week and I was afraid to weigh myself the Friday after. But I had to because Friday mornings are my scheduled at-home weigh-in. I was very surprised to find that I lost 1.5 pounds!!! How is that possible? My metabolism must really be in high gear! Good thing I haven't been feeling well enough to exercise yet. And the start of this week was my family's annual Pie Day. We go, socialize, and eat pie for hours! I'm sure I'll gain a little from that tasty tradition. I bet Baby Lime likes Pie.

Drawback? Too full! I slumped on the couch next to my family the rest of that holiday evening. Still, that was a welcomed activity, since when I had arrived at my Grandma's house, not everyone had been aware of my pregnancy. I wore a dress that hid the bump, but still gave a look of being pregnant. i found myself sucking my tummy in and bending forward slightly to minimize my size until the news broke free. After I'd stuffed my face with two plates of incredible home-cooked delights, I told my aunt it was ok that i'd eaten so much because i was eating for two. She gasped! My mom took center stage declaring that Mike and I had an announcement to make. When Baby Fig was revealed everyone was happy and congratulatory . . . and i was relieved to let my stomach back out!

The next day, my husband and i locked ourselves in from the Black Friday craziness. He played video games while I played with Landon and attempted to manage a sick stomach that had once again returned. Thanks for the break little baby. You let me eat to my heart's delight on Thanksgiving, and for that i am grateful!

Its getting a little harder to hide my baby bump at work. What a difference a week makes. I'm starting to wear loose things over my tighter shirts. If i start dressing frumpy, everyone will wonder why, so i cover just that area and hope no one picks up on my plan!

I feel like i should wait awhile since i had just eaten a lot, but there's only so long i can wait before I start to feel very sick. The empty stomach feeling is the worst. I've found that when i eat a large meal, i feel more sick right after, compared to just grazing all day. Not too different from when i'm not pregnant. I tend to feel sick right before eating and right after eating. But i feel great while I'm eating! I haven't been able to start working out yet. I feel too tired.  I am really hoping that in a week's time my sickness will subside. I want to be able to pig out on Thanksgiving goodies freely and enjoyable. Only time will tell! 

I still haven't told anyone at work other than a few people that knew from the very beginning. So far I can hide it pretty easily, but i can feel my body changing faster so I'm not sure how easy it will be in the coming weeks. I'd like to wait until 14 weeks to reveal this baby to the world. Mike and I always feel a bit unsure of things until 14 weeks, since that's when we found out about losing our first baby. That means we've got only about a month until we can stop holding our breath!

The morning sickness, which should really be called all-day sickness, has been stronger this week. I've found that I had to eat constantly in order to not feel nauseated. What's amazing is that i didn't really gain any weight. I expected to with everything i was ingesting and the lack of desire to exercise. I haven't been able to eat what i needed to either.

Instead of veggies and meat i am eating fruit and grains. I hope to soon be able to eat salads again. I want to be able to exercise as well. Its difficult when I feel so sick and worn out. My son and i have spent a lot of evenings just lounging

Being sick has taken energy from me, and managing it has taken even more. My metabolism has been working in overdrive burning everything! At least the sickness tells me something is happening inside me. And after my doctor's visit last week, I feel more confident that this time things are going to turn out ok.

I still haven't had any dreams about the baby, or having a baby. My mind has been closed off to trying to determine if I'm having a girl or a boy, so that could be why. So far I can't really tell, but during the initial ultrasound, i felt as if I was looking at a girl. But although I feel more feminine than i had during Landon's pregnancy, I still am not sure at all if my instincts are telling me anything.

I found that my weight trend was similar. I had gained and lost a half pound every few days up until i was 13 weeks. It wasn't until after i was well into the 2nd trimester that i started consistently gaining a little. I was underweight up until that point. I felt much more at ease after seeing my previous chart. I also looked back at my weekly photos from that pregnancy and couldn't see any super obvious change in my figure until about 18 or 19 weeks. People didn't really start commenting on a noticeable tummy until after 20 weeks. So i've got a little ways to go yet. I no longer feel worried about my weight. I plan to continue eating everything, moving my body when i can, and loving my pregnancy.

So far the sickness has been stronger this week but much more manageable than it had been with Landon's pregnancy. What's hard is trying to keep up with my cravings. I don't have one or two primary cravings that stick with me for the long hall, but rather a different craving every day or even every hour! And if I don't consume whatever it is I'm craving while I'm craving it, my stomach will become upset and the craving drastically changes. After my weekly grocery shopping excursions, I rarely want the food I've spent all our food budget on. I usually end up back at the story nearly every night scoping the shelves for whatever I think I might want to eat by the time i get it home. I find myself laughing and even enjoying the chaos!

So far i haven't been able to remember my dreams. I know right when I awaken that the dream I just had was very vivid but moments later i cannot recall anything about them. I'm a little disappointed because I wanted to write them down as I had during Landon's pregnancy. Those crazy dreams are a lot of fun to look back on. Most of them involved a baby in some way. The baby was always a boy in blue. Without remembering my dreams this time around, I have been given little internal clues as to what gender this baby will be. Sometimes I get a glimpse of pink, an inner aura if you will. I remember feeling a sense of masculinity when I was pregnant with Landon; this time i feel a little more feminine. However, I am not confident that this baby is a girl. Only time will tell. Perhaps I am not meant to know quite yet.  

All in all, i'm in very high spirits. I have been taking every piece of this journey to heart and making the most of every moment.