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WEEK 14 | MONTH THREE | BABY LEMON
It was a good day. Warm, breezy, perfect. Sickness basically gone, feeling great! I lost a tiny bit of weight but I'm not concerned, happens sometimes, especially when you're sweating constantly in the summer heat. Baby Lemon is wonderful, I can tell. If something was wrong, I'd know. Instincts would be read-flagging. Things are good, things are perfect.
Plus...its Friday!! And I get to spend the entire evening with my sister, her kids and my kids while Mike goes to a party with my brother-in-law. Can't beat that!
SATURDAY JUNE 18
I was sitting on the couch today, vegging in the humidity (still no air conditioner), when Landon approached me, leaned in and sweetly kissed my tummy. Then he hugged my tummy and walked away. Not a word said. I love that boy!!! He will make a wonderfully amazing father someday...WAY in in the future.
No sickness again today! I think I'm on a role. Later on today we went out for Father's Day, just Mike and the kids and me. I had steak, yummy steak. It was awesome. I picked the leanest cut available because Baby Lemon is happier when mommy is healthy.
SUNDAY JUNE 19
First off...Happy Father's Day to my amazing husband!! He's ever-so loving, never seems to run out of that. My kiddos are the luckiest, and this baby has no clue what's in store. I'm so blessed to be married to someone who loves his children as much as he does. Baby Lemon, you have nothing to fear...you will be in good, strong hands.
Today was productive. Mike went golfing with his dad and family for Father's Day so I spent the majority of the day outside with the kids, playing in the pool, on the swing set, and drawing. Simply wonderful. Later on we went out to dinner with the in-laws to celebrate Father's Day. Everyone was so congratulatory! It was nice to see such excitement and support. I enjoyed not hiding it and just having fun sharing the joy. When we got home, we spent the last hours of sunlight in the yard. Mike mowed, Landon and Kiley played, and I weed-worked. I'd never used a week-whacker before but it was super fun!! Everything looked so groomed afterwards. I also pulled weeds. It was a lot of work but it was worth it. It was so refreshing to be outdoors together taking care of what's ours. It was nice feeling like we could, considering the kids usually need our attention. For once they just played together. It'll be fun when this one comes and adds another player to the game.
MONDAY JUNE 20
Tired today! Good day otherwise. Nausea crept back in, as it always seems to do at work. I have a theory that sitting all day, standing all day, isn't good for me, that when i'm not active and moving around my body doesn't know what else to do but feel kinda crappy. I also think its in my head, that i'm used to be sick at work and feeling ok when i leave. I still think it will pass, that one day very soon i will feel just good stuff.
But the good stuff I'm feeling still manages to override any stomach issues. I can't express how happy I am to be pregnant one last time. What's interesting is that i'm not sad about it like i was with Kiley. When i was pregnant with her i kept thinking how sad it was that this was my last time experiencing everything i was experiencing. I love being pregnant and having babies and caring for them. I love every moment and to think I would never get that chance again broke my heart. It wasn't until many months after she was born that i finally came to terms with that reality. I was able to accept that she was my last. But then this happened, and here I am getting another chance to experience it all again, in a whole new way! Its something i didn't expect, but now wonder if I always knew in the deep pockets of my mind that this was meant to happen, that by saying we were done was not the way it was supposed to be, that my sadness stemmed from that subconscious gut feeling. I say this because so far i don't feel that sadness. I feel like this is meant to be my final pregnancy, my final birth and my last little newborn. I feel ready to take this journey and ready for it to be the last time i am blessed with such a gift. That understanding is helping me appreciate everything even more than i already do. I didn't think it was possible to love pregnancy more, but apparently its possible.
TUESDAY JUNE 21
Today i feel great! Very little nausea, very little tiredness. I also feel big. Haha, no not fat, not overweight, just big, in the tummy area...not so much above or below, but right at the tummy. And i love it. I love that i get to look pregnant longer. Its fun. But i have a feeling i might become bored with my wardrobe. I just might have to take a trip to the store to mix things up a bit. Gee darn.
I had fun looking back on pics of me while pregnant with Landon and Kiley, comparing how different i look now. I don't weigh anymore, i'm just popping out further. Makes me laugh. My little Lemon, peeking out.
Landon had baseball practice today. I have to say it was hot. Baby got some sun. I bet he/she loved listening to the sounds of parents cheering for their kids, Kiley running around giggling. I wonder what he/she hears in there...
WEDNESDAY JUNE 22
Hello Baby! Good morning! Welcome to another Wednesday. You better get used to Wednesdays. You will have a lot of them coming. We aren't sick today! Not even an ounce! I thank you for that. :) I'm happy you are here. I'm happy we are together. We haven't formally met, but already I love you to pieces. You are already a part of this family and we look forward to meeting you face to face and seeing you for the first time. I'm excited for you!
THURSDAY JUNE 23
I feel great today. I had a weird stomach ache this morning but as the day moved on it went away and now i feel wonderful. I have an appointment tomorrow, just a check-up. Likely no ultrasound, but i have to trust that everything is ok.